[:

ha, i'm back from town for like the past 1 hour. man, missed all the good shows on tv. well, least i caught the last hour of LOST. WAHAHA. yeah yeah.. i prefered watching than bathing luh, heh. however, LOST is getting more and more nonsensical. why people start killing each other on some ulu island. alright.. i'll drop the topic. [:

&ya, was in town for the evening. meet olivia at 5PM. i'm very excited to see her! LOL, it has been almost 2 weeks since i last saw her. she slim down a little! [: hahas, 'cause she had some skin allergy &had to survive on porridge every meal. haha, aiya, see she so hyper.. should be alright already. hee. i've got so many things to tell her.... &as usual we chattered non-stop. ha. we went suntec city to shop, well, she did her shopping.. i was doing some window shopping instead. after that we went to plaza singapura's TCC cafe for dinner. lol. we talked about r/s, poly, school, friends &our lives. haha. she gave me a lot of advices &well, i think they are sure reasonble. heh. thanks my dear. sure are the BEST!!! wonder what i'll do w/o my best friends. cry, wither and die in a dark, isolated corner? ]: my family don't understand my life luh. all they do is nag &nothing useful comes out of their mouths. yes, i do know they care but could they be like less mean. sigh, the best person to understand all this would definately be, the one &only, me. [: yup everyone's like that. we all just need someone to listen to &sometimes seek help.. but no matter what, the decisions we make lies in our own hands.
ok, enough of life rantings.. left the cafe around 10PM. heh. we took the train from douby gort to harbourfront and back to our homes. heh. least we had seats. C: yea. that's for the day.

i'll be meeting my beloved lover for dinner later! YAY C: seeyou dear! hugs. don't get too stressed up. it will soon to be over! rmb, i'm here to listen to you rant! d: alright.. good night C:

i wanted to hold you, i wanted to make it go away.. i wanted to know you, i wanted to make your everything all right...

fuckstrated.

It's your time
It's your day
It's never too late
To change lanes
How's your life?
How's your place?
Was it where you wanted
Your head to lay?

But wait, you can breathe
You can see what
I can see
Don't waste your time
You can't make back

If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?

Do you like you?
Do you love your wife?
Or did you pick what
You're told was right?

Dream and be
What you feel
Don't you compromise
What you wanna be
'Cause change is okay
What's the point in staying the same
Regrets, forget what's dead and gone

If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?

If Jesus rode in on a camel today
With your cross on his shoulder
Time to take you away
Have you done all you wanted?
Are you happy and warm?
Do you miss someone special
You don't see anymore?
Have you blood on your hands?
Do you dream of white sands?
Can you sleep well at night?
Have you done all you can?
The place I was born in
Stays crooked and straight
I see innocent blue eyes
Go blind everyday

Rewind your time
Would you change your life
Today?

Stereophonics, 'Rewind'.

this song is so true... even everything rewinds, would you change your life? would you go back just to lose every single thing you earned right now? that's a tough question for me to answer.. what do you think?

anyway, cooped up at home all day, again. life's kind of meaningless now. i've got nothing better to do then turn into some couch potato every single day. it's fucking lifeless. don't get why i need to listen to things i don't have to. it's fuckingly frustrating. urg.. my mood swung. and it is dampen, sunken, soggy and cold. i hope people stop contradicting about things and themselves. you know how annoying it is to hear all that fucking nonsense?! how i wish i could shove all that shit back up your ass! ARH.
i have been wondering what's up with my course appeal too. it has been weeks since i receive any information. wtf is wrong. ARG! fuckstrated. LOL. whatever. it's a cooling night today because of all that rain in the evening. and i'm.. oooh.... falling... asleep... yawns. bored... i'm heading town tomorrow with olivia. hope i don't see any poop faces. EAT POOP. bleah! 30th of march. 1 more day till a new month. gosh, how time flies, i have been jobless for a month and 2 weeks. ): and so broke.. april is coming.. i need to be prepared to go to school! oh wait, my colleagues are planning to go genting on 17th! hehehe! i hope mummy sets me free. DOUBT SO! *dangs.* crap, i really want to get away from singapore.. even if it's just for a few days.. and i don't care! get me out of this tiny country!!! sigh.. CRAP!

oh well, let's see what's going to happen!
ha.
so have a gd night, y'all.
C:

:D

weeeeeeeee! i'm back to my usual self :D today was crap day man! awwwws. i just love to laugh!! it feels so gd!! thanks JETAIME and XUELI for both of your stupidity. lol. joey and i went for junk food today. feels gd to have all the junk in our bellies. we had nth better to do, so we raid almost every shop. lol :p around evening time, the clowns came. LOL! i was so shock to see jetaime!! LOL.. 'excited' at the same time! LOL x: wah piang. all of them make me laugh so loud *blush* .. LOL.. but it was so fun xD awws, thanks y'all. almost everyone knew my dirty little secret and it kinda shock xueli. LOL.. no worries. i'm fine :) haha! yes. tht thing is vicious. haha. well, it's over. i've got nth much to say anymore. it's all a memory. can't believe i was drowning in it for so many days. afterall, i've got friends! :D thank god they're always there. :) and thank you my friends. keke.. okay. gtg find something better to do. take care!

plunged.

my mood meter had plunged way to the bottom.
it's the end, why aren't you saying goodbye..
'Liebt Brände oder blendet? Oder verletzt er?'
lets fly a kite...
Und wir werden für unsere Leben laufen...

yawn.

YAWNS.. Ox
This is such a killer. Woke up at 11AM today just to go to the bank to get a stupid verified thumbprint. *Pfffftt..* After that, when to photocopy my bankbook page cause they need it. Urg! So frustrating!!! Went back to check the post-letter box to see what time they will collect the mails. At 5PM. They better! If not no school for me next month. Lol. Yup. Finally! My enrolment is completed!!! [: It has been dumped into the post-letter box once and for all! Just waiting for their mails and crap luh and lastly registering my EZ-link Card. Hmmm, listening to James Blunt's High while I'm like feeling so down and low. Lol.. But singing this song out loud makes me feel a little better. Oh oh the chorus's coming, *starts singing* 'But now I'm high~~ Running wild among all the stars~ above. Sometimes~~ it's hard to believe you remember me..' Ahh, that's better. [: I've updated my web randoms well cause I've got nothing better to do.. 'Getting HIGH~~ Running wild among all the stars~ above. Sometimes~~ it's hard to believe you remember me..' Oops, at it again. x: It's such a nice song... [x I downloaded it last year when I saw Eunice's MSN nick says, 'High by James Blunt rocks!!', something like that luh. Lol, so ya, it's really GREAT. I've just saw the MTV of it a few days ago.. Damn RAD. They played the lightings really well. Great light effects! LOL~ YUP. Hmm, other than 'HIGH'ing, just guiding Shimin Sis through photoshop and blogskin-making. LOL, hope it turns out nice luh. ALL THE BEST! HAHA. Ok, think I'll go back to do NOTHING again. CRAP.
We need to talk...

yay!

YAY.
thanks jacelyn! :D
my enrolment is finally completed! minus the cpf part.
LOL.
><
just get all the forms signed by mum and yay!
post it!
haha..
think i'm falling sick.
i think.

sing out this song and i'll be there by you side..

awws, this is so cute.
i wished i was comforted too..
:(

anyway..
mum said i don't have to be so troublesome by going back to sch.
as long next month in sch, just remember to take the cpf forms and fill it up will do.
sigh.
still got 1 more thing not settled, my enrolment report needs to be printed out.
-_-
when back to my ex working place and asked jacelyn to print it for me,
but my report wasn't there!! -_-
ARHS.
wth.
thanks anyway, jacelyn!
ahhhhhhhh, tmr i have to post all this dumb shit. x:
i'm so TROUBLED and helpless.
ARG.
anyway, 1 week later still need to go register for my EZ link card.
gosh, the picture taken today is so fugly.
LOL.
aiya, whatever luh.
lazy to bother.
xP
sigh.. i'm so bored now..
least, almost everything is settled..
things are gng slightly smoother now.
not like the pass few days where everything comes crashing down on me.
but, yea.. i'm picking up the pieces again.
life, full of 'ups' and 'downs', as always!
sigh..
i wish to talk to someone too.. but. sigh....
guess we are both taken aback...
i'm really sorry. :(
you'd say we are still friends right?
why such treatment....
this is upsetting.
do we have to end up like this?
i really want to put this aside.. i tried really hard, but to no avail.
i feel that there's something left undone and i just want to mend this up....
afterall, i really have no choice..
i just need to LET GO...

sigh, alright, drop the topic.
i want to cut my hair short!
SHORT SHORT SHORT.
i want my hair to look like the 'angel' picture of me.
so style man.
LOL~
ok, trying hard to be myself again.
so, i'm blasting some music into my ears..
this feels so good....
if i'm deafen, you should know the reason why..

wasting it all.

my anger has ceased alittle, just need something to vent on now.

1. CURRENT MOOD?
+ IT'S PRETTY BAD NOW.
2.SUM UP IN 4 WORDS TO WHAT YOU'RE FEELING.
+ SO VERY FUCKED UP!
3. HAVE YOU TRIED & DO YOU THINK LONGDISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK FOR YOU?
+no luh.. don't think so.
4. ARE YOU AN EMOTIONAL PERSON?
+ VERY. i cry when i'm angry too.
5. YOU BELIEVE IN YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
+ YES.
6. EVER FELT SO JEALOUS?
+ not really, just envy..
7. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID BEFORE ANSWERING THIS?
+ chatting with my lover.
8. WHO IS NEXT TO YOU?
+ no one.
9. HOW'S THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
+ very cool.
10. LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU TODAY?
+ Joey fishball.
11. LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED TODAY?
+ Joey!
12. LOST A FRIEND OVER SOMETHING STUPID?
+ yes.
13. BEEN REALLY DEPRESSED BEFORE?
+ i don't go under depression, but i'm really depressed now.
14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
+ 1PM.
15.WHAT PICTURE DO YOU SEE FIRST WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
+ nothing.
16. WHO DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR CLOSEST FRIEND?
+ those who cares for me.
17. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU DID WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
+ charge my handphone, went FLAT.
18. DO YOU HATE ANYONE RIGHT NOW?
+ no. just angry with someone.
19. WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOR?
+ brown? not much preference.
20. MISS SOMEONE?
+ NO.
21. LIKE TO WALK UNDER THE RAIN?
+ YES.
22. SLEEP WITH/WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
+ with luh.
23. LIKE SOMEONE?
+ no i don't.
24. THEY KNOW?
+ ...
25. THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE?
+ no. -_-
26. WANT TO MARRY?
+ when i'm 25?
27. WHO?
+God knows.
28. ARE YOU A GOOD STUDENT?
+ more to the playful kind.
29. BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
+ NO.. but i believe in love at first sight because of physical attrations.
30. THINK DREAMS EVENTUALLY COME TRUE?
+ deja vu. life is already planned.
31. FAVOURITE THINGS TO DO?
+ EATING.
32. FAVE PERSON?
+ hmmmmmm.. no favourite luh. you're sweet to me i'm satisfied.
33. FAVE FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
+ EYES. must be very big. LOL.
34. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
+Ytd, talk to some admin stuff in TP.
35. LOUD OR SOFT MUSIC?
+ LOUD.
36. NIGHT OR DAY?
+ the night.
37. WHAT'S YOUR BEDTIME?
+ 1 to 4AM.
38. WHO DO YOU TALK TO THE MOST ONLINE?
+ my lover! :p
39. WHAT DO YOU HATE MOST RIGHT NOW?
+ some heartbreaks and enrolment process.
40. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHTNOW?
+ Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles
42. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA?
+ yeah.
43. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AND WITH WHO?
+ Yours, Mine and Ours with Joey.
44. FAVORITE DAY?
+ Friday Nights.
45. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS ACHILD?
+ tonnes of plushies.
46. WHAT DID YOU DO 4 NIGHTS AGO?
+ chatting online.
47. FAVORITE SCENT?
+ MINTS! :)
48. WHO INSPIRES YOU?
+ The people of my life? :p
49. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
+ Losing anyone whom I know.
50. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN?
+ BUTTERED!
51. FAVE FLOWER?
+ Lavenders?
52. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
+ i think 2 keys..
53. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR SHOES?
+ i got lotsa pairs! but i like the red checkered one best!
54. WHAT MONTH IS YOUR BIRTHDAY?
+ SEP.
55. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO AFTER THIS?
+ reminisce and SLEEP.

ha.. i feel so much better.
ok there are something i really need to do this coming days.

TMR or LATER i should say :
-photocopy my birth cert.
-photocopy my IC
-take passport size photo.
-complete online enrolment and PRINT IT!! @%$!%&, no printer leh. :/

Moday :
-take CPF form from sch.
-maybe pay a visit to old sch to see my GFS

Tuesday :
-to TP AGAIN! @#%$^&*.. to hand in enrolment stuff.

YUP. busy busy busy.
my date line is approaching.
29MARCH.
sigh.
ok, see you.

troubled

no printer, no scanner, nothing at all.
how to complete my enrolment stuff?!
shit luh.
AIYAH -_____-
this shit is driving me INSANE!!!
WTH......................................
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

FUCK.

FUCK EVERYTHING LUH.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK YOU!

ARG! :_(

shit.

it's nt like i don't care.
if i could help myself, i would help anyone.
but sorry, it's nt the case now.
i hope i wasn't the one who stopped you from expressing your thoughts.
i do need someone to listen to me too right?
and at least i didn't go overboard, i still cared for every of my friends.
im shock.
but i don't blame you.
well, if that's what you think i am and you don't think i care, then i'm sorry.
wth, this is crap.
i'm gng away for a moment...

oh god, why is all this shit happening again.
what's this, deja vu..? bullshit.
damn, tears are really falling..

bored luh.

Random Barangs (:

1. Talk to someone you liked : haha, DUH. ;)
2. Bought something : uhh, food considered? :/
3. Got sick : 2 months ago?
4. Sings : IN THE SHOWERS.
5. Talk to your ex : hmm, seldom, but they are the ones who bother me.
6. Miss someone : LIKE DUH! keke, hope he KNOWS. LMAO-
7. Slept in your bed: myself.
8. Saw or heard you cry : guess so, usually my mum. LOL.
9. Made you cry : LOL, my ex ASS supervisor. AMAZING ISN'T IT?
10. Went to the movies with? the last time? : Oh, with the GRTCP gang on Jacelyn's Birthday!
11. You went to the mall with : Kelly LOVER! :p
12. Said "I Love You" and meant it : TWO YEARS AGO! LMAO-
13. Ever been in a fight with your pet : this sounds crazy, but I do smack Bobby's BUTT. HEE.
14. Been to California : nah..
15. Been to Mexico : I think those fake ones in America. LOL. When I was SIX!
16. Been to Singapore : LIKE DUH! It's my country.
17. Been to Thailand : Yeah, Twice, Bangkok and Chiangmai &Chiangrai :D
18. Do you have a crush on someone : yes luh.. *blushing.*
19. What book are you reading now : Uh... Between Two Eternities.
20. Best feeling in the world : BEING LOVED.. awwwwwws.
21. Future kids names : Hee.. See luh. :D
22. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : stuffed banana counted or not?
23. What's under your bed : Another matress.
24. Favorite sports to watch : Soccer I guess, but it's a RARE thing, really.
25. Location : In my bedroom now..
26. Piercing/Tattoos : 4 earholes.
27. What are you most scared of right now : big brown giant beetles flying into my room.
28. Where do you want to get married : VENICE!!! LOL.
29. Who do you really hate : Nobody now. :)
30. Do you like being around people : Of course..
31. Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with: haha, a few times..
32. Have you ever cried : If I said no, would I be lying?! stupid question.
33. Are you lonely right now : kind of.. but Joey is talking to me online..
34. Song that's stuck in your head right now : Hmm, Brighter than Sunshin by Aqualungs
35. Played strip poker : NO AND NEVER! hahaha. omg
36. Been in a mosh-pit : what the heck is that?
37. Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you : issn't that the same question as 31? oh, I really dont even know I was noticed or not luh.. ha.

:) yea.

DONG DO IN THISH WAE!

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

And it's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine I got a feeling in my soul

I got a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine.

Aqualungs : "Brighter than Sunshine"
______________________________________________

"JORLINK, DONG DO IN THISH WAEEE." Suddenly, Mr Lee just comes up in my mind. HA! Sigh, I slept my day away! That's good, and BAD. I woke up at 12PM, had lunch, watch television and fell asleep. I couldn't wake up after that and slept till 5PM. HA! Sounded so PIG like, TSK TSK. That's what you do when you're jobless and practically have nothing better to do. HEHE.. Sigh, I've been cooped up at home for 5 days!!! Can you believe that?! OH MY.. Well, I'm finally doing something for the following days. Tomorrow, I'm going back to school to take my Art Prepatory work back and visit my dearest GiRLFRiEND! WEEEE. FiNALLY GETTiNG OUT OF THiS HOUSE. Oh, anyone interested in accompanying me back to school? *looks at YOU with innocent looking eyes..* KEKE. *blushes..* Awws, nevermind. On Thursday, I'm going to pay a visit to the clinic for some medical check up with Joey. Ha, thanks so much JOEY. :) If not I'm going to be so lonely.. Hee.. Friday, I'm going out with Olivia for a MOVIE. 'Date Movie'! WAHAHAHA, finally I'm going to catch it! Weeeee.. Okay, I'm hungry now and the stomach growling mad. Talk later!!!

OH.

After reading through lover's blog, I'VE GOT A CONFESSION TO MAKE. Ahem...
HAHAHA, it's regarding the AH-LIAN style of typing luh.
Well, it really irrates me a lot when I sEeEe howw peeoplee tyypee liikee thiishh. eeeuu knoww norhxxxs???!
WTF, I CAN'T GO ON ALREADY.
Laugh my ASS off.
However, there are still many styles, but I can't illustrate all because I can't stand typing all those shit.
So, about my confession............................
I used to do that! X:
BUT HELL NO, not THAT EXAGGERATING! I only remembered the double ii wiithiin a word. AND THE 'eu' which is supposed to type as YOU.
Well, I thought that the double I thingy was kind of cute, but I started to realise I was making a FOOL out of MYSELF. GOSH. Moreover, more twits were starting to type like that.
And the 'eu', well, come to think of it, it was my classmates and I who started to 'eu' here and there when we were in Seconday Three. WE STARTED THE CHAOS INSTEAD. TWITS STARTED TO POSE US. LOL. And STILL, people are going 'are EU oRhkaay?' till this very day.
No kidding luh, EU WANT TO KNOW WHY?
Thanks to Mr Lee Siow Tong, that 'eu' was invented. TADAH! :) Mr Lee is SUPER UBER CUTE LUH! One of our funniest teacher around in school, well not exactly FUNNY, but we realised that he was our laughing stock.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
So during lessons when I wasn't paying attention to him(I was a 'chao ah lian' since Secondary Two to Seconday Three{mid-year} kekekeke), he will go,"Urh, this JORLINK(he can't pronouce my name properly) arh? Are EUU paying attention? If not I'm going to call EEUR parents.." *Rolls on floor laughing!* What's worse, he can't just speak in a straight tone, he will also 'zhao xia', if not his voice will go like up and down, you know.. HA! Oh, so from then on, my classmates started to call me JORLINK instead of JOLENE. It's LENE, YOU SOTONG! So cute right. >< "JORLINK, have EU finished your homework?" when I didn't hand in my maths homework, "ARRR, thish LEE XUAN, stop talking to ARH thish JORLINK.." when Li Xuan and I wasn't bothering him when he is teaching. It just goes on EVERYDAY! HA! But I really thank him and his daily Kit-Kat give aways! WOO HOO.
SUBER UBER TEACHER OF YEAR 04 : MR LEE SIOW TONG. ^^
I love Seconday 3 life. :)
Then comes Secondary 4, IT WAS THE BEST.
YES.
I thank the teachers and fellow classmates of 4INT.
Ha.
*SLAPS FOREHEAD*
Why am I saying all this. -__-
Hahaha, well, it's still fun to think back.
School days were fab. Minus the bad days when I get caught by Mr Jamil for untucked uniform, ankle socks, ear rings, ear studs, ear sticks, short skirts, etc etc, and when I get scolded by LLL countless of times for messed up hair, ear rings, ear sticks and sometimes, for nothing. AIYA, this kind of teachers are all the SAME. USELESS. X:
HAHA.
And MINUS OFF DAYS WHEN I WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL!
Bus 83 always screw up, and they bloody hell do not believe us.
STUPID SCHOOL.
Yea.
Turn back the hands of time? Needless to say.....
*Into the memory chest!*

bored day.

I have been facing the many walls of my home for the entire day and finally, I'm getting out later in the afternoon.
I'll be meeting my ever so loving, LOVER DEAR.
Hahaha.
Okay, I read a book till I feel asleep just now, probably I'm not into the story.
But it's pretty cute luh. It's called 'Between Two Eternities'. The story is about a premature baby going through his 3 months in the hospital. His two enternities is his so called, 'Perfect Red Sea' and 'The Living'. It was kind of cute luh. As he experiences everything surrounding him, voices, people that is called 'The important people' to him and stuff that they(the doctors) are doing to little Saul. Yep, that's his name. Yeap.
Alright, I'd better stop publishing the book.
Hahaha.
I was also trying to trim Bobby's LONG PAW NAILS, and he tried to snap off my fingers!
STUPID DOG!
Alright, I was a little mean when I caned him.
OOOPS.
He's fine, no worries.
:p
In the end, I gave in.
I'm afraid to die of Rabies from him.
SO, 2 paw nails wasn't touched.
And I left him in peace.
LOL.
Sigh, I'm bored.
I NEED SOMEONE TO ENTERTAIN ME!!!!
Blah.
I'm not looking forward to reopening of school.
I changed my mindset of meeting new people, I've become more withdrawn now.
Sigh.
Whatever.
When is the appeal results coming out!!!?
Stop keeping me in suspense, I'm so sick of it.
If I get it though, I would think it was worth the wait, right?
DAHS.
Hope to get through all my enrolment once and for all, and start school in peace.
Orientation ? :z
Sigh.
Alright.
I'm waiting......

FEAST!

Good morning.
Finally, I've finished editing the entire webpage.(took me the entire night today)
Uh, yeah.
Feat. ME! Hahaha, yeah, and Time.
I love it a lot luh.
I have been a good girl, didn't step out of the house the entire day.
I was entertaining Bobby, watching Tv, hogging the computer, eating, slacking ecetera ecetera.
Okay, let's not talk about boring days luh.
Hehe.
Yesterday, 14 March, was Jacelyn's birthday! :)
A great day infact.
Met Diana and Jacelyn at 2PM in Compass Point, and we went all the way to Golden Mile Complex.
The GRTCP gang was going to my mum's place for a feast!!!!
Oh-so-SHIOK urh.
Hahaha.
When we reached there, we waited for Tracy, Iris and Huining to come.
After when they arrived, they wanted to go see that woman, but Tzi Ying asked them to go eat first luh.
So we started feasting first.
LOL, was so happy luh!
Feasting makes me happy!
We ate 1 bowl of beef soup, 16 fried fishballs,1 plate of pineapple rice, 2 plate of fried rice and 3 bowls of tom yum soup noodle!!
WAH, SO SHIOK!
WAS SO SO SO SATISFIED LUH.
Hahaha, so love MUM'S COOKING!!!
Hehe, hope to cook like her too. :p
After that Jacelyn paid for everyone except HN and me luh.
My mum gave special discount luh, everything only $20!
SO CHEAP LUH!!!
Kekekeke.
After that those who want to transfer back to GMC went to see that woman.
Congratulations to Tracy, Iris and Diana for the transfer!!!!
ALL THE BEST.
GRTCP will be different whenever I walk past....
Anyway, we slacked around there and waited for present and HN to knock off from work.
Tracy, Jacelyn, Diana and me then took a cab down to Plaza Singapura to catch a movie.
We wanted to watch FD3 or Nanny McPhee, but wasn't available, so we booked The Shaggy Dog!
Hehe.
Before we went to the movie, we went to Geláre for ice-cream and waited for Jacelyn's BF to come.
When the movie was abt to start, her bf still haven't come, so we went in first.
OOPS, so bad right X: leave the birthday girl out there.
Hahaha, after abt 10 minutes later, they came into the theatre.
AwWwWwWs, I enjoyed the movie so MUCH!
I was laughing througout the entire show!
Although the story was kinda lame, but I did enjoyed it!
Shaggy is so CUTE!!! AWWWS, I wna HUG HIM.
Hahaha, I liked the part when all of the animals started to medidate.
Was UBER CUTE man!!!!
Kekekeke.
After the movie we headed home luh.
Tracy and Diana went back to Bedok while Jacelyn went with her BF.
Hahaha, they go romantic luh.
LOL.
So, I went home alone luh, but it's understandable.
KEKEKE.
YEA, super uber great day!
Hope to hang out more with the GRTCP gang.
Guess what, GRTCP is going to topple if the sales don't improve by next month!
HOLY SHIT.
The poor branch, with such a person-in-charge, it bound to FALL luh.
SERVE THAT MORON RIGHT, he was being shoot inderectly be KEN LIM(biggest boss).
NAHAHAHAHAAHS.
Bleah.
Okay, look at the time, it's time for bed!
Gd night! Or is it morning already?
Hahaha. CIAOS.

We weren't meant to be together...
Sigh...
uoyssimi...
16TH day..... :_(

BAD INTERVIEW.

ARRRRRRH. The interview was so nerve-wrecking!!! ARRRRH.
AND I'M SO SCREWD!
I doubt I'm not going to my desired course. : (
The competition was so TIGHT in there, I don't even know where I stand.
Bloody hell.
Everything just lie in the hands of F A T E. Once again.
*HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZ! BIG SIGH!*
Oh.. I'm feeling SICK now.
No, not ill, just SICK.
Anyway, just had breakfast with Olivia this morning.. Just our usual talks and rants.
And off I went to TP for that interview.
After my interview, I went along with dear Tracy :>
Thanks for looking for me!
Haha.
Went to Tampinese Mall to buy something.
And in the mean time forgot about something, until I reached there, then I realised.
SHIT. : (
Had MILKSHAKE(chocolate).. And she had McFlurry.
Got a card and I PS-ED her.
OOPS : ( I'm so sorry, had to go for dinner with a friend.
SORRY TRACY!!
Yup, so I went back to Hougang Mall and looked for LOVER!
HA, had MacDonalds and then we walked around.
Chatting minor stuff and she forgot to bring the game for me!
ARRRHS. BORED.
:/
Anyway, thanks for the ride home lover!!!
HUGS.
TAKE CARE.
Pssst, someone buy me that SHEEEEP PLUSHIE..
SOMEONE?
: (
CIAO.

peeeeks. : (
hold on, don't come back to me if you don't have an answer.
you'de love me all along is what i want to hear from you..
13th DAY.....

heading out.

I'm always sneezing in the middle of the night.
There it goes again, 'ARH ARH ARCHOOOOOOOOO!!!!'
*Rubs nose...* Bleah....
Gosh, it's cold, it's cold, IT'S SO COLD.
BUT, I love it.
I LOVE AIR-CON!
:)
Ahh, forgive me, I'm trying to be super NON-SENSICAL here. Or is it NONSENSICAL?
NONSENSE.
Haha.
I was watching Fearless just know with JJ till I started dozing off.
Woke up a few times, trying to pry my eyes open, but to no avail, they simply SHUT TIGHT.
I was awake when the entire show ended.
Oops, I'm too TIRED I guess. :(
Oh well, I'm still wide awake here.
So.... Let me talk to y'all.
WAH KAKAKAKA x)
Ok...
Olivia, HuanYing and me went to Temasek Poly's Band concert last Friday evening.
Before that, had a cup of coffee at Compass' Starbucks with Olivia first.
Uh yeah, chatted about something that has been bothering her for a very very very very long time.
I feel very helpless though, cause I really don't know how should I help her.
Think my advices are useless anyway.
Well, all I could do is console her, lend her a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on?
Uh.. Yeah..
It has been a very long time since I last went for a Band concert.
Guess what?
I'm going to TP like lots of times even before I even start schooling!!!!
Anyway, went there with Olivia, after that we met HuanYing! :p
AWWWS, SHE'S SUPER UBERLY CUTE.
Hahahaha.
The concert was held in the Auditorum.
During the performance, we made hell lots od noise, talking loudly and giving so many comments!!
Hahaha, it was kinda embarrasing when ppl are looking at us and we don't even know la.
They played pieces like Blue Ridge Saga, Ross Roy, Rhapsody for Hanukkah ecetera ecetera.
Overall, was OKAY la.
LOL.
But I loved their Ross Roy. :p
After the concert was over, HuanHuan went home alone.
Oops :(
Then Olivia and Me went to Compass' Macdonalds for dinner.
And then we went home.
I know she's kinda feeling very upset now, but I hope she's okay.
Mother Mary will guide you sweetheart.
SO DESPAIR NOT. :)

Anyway, I went out with LOVER Kelly in the afternoon just now.
xP
WAHAHAHAHAHA, went bonkers all over City Hall.
We had lunch at Marina Square's KENNY ROGERS!
WOOOOOOOOOOOO!
But we were super disappointed as there wasn't POTATO SALAD.
DAMN THEM.
They even had service charges.
BLAH.
I'm not going back there anymore.
I WANT SUNTEC CITY'S KR!
MUAHAHAHAHA.
Oh Hack.
Went to Esplanade!
And were laughing our asses OFF there.
BLOODYHELL.
LOVE THIS GIRL SO MUCH.
hahahas.
I bet she remembers me singing, 'I believe I can fly, *silent OOO*'
LOL.. Bloodyhell!!
She started to laugh AT ME!!!
HAAHA.. Yeah.
After all that, we window shopped.
BLOODYHELL MANY PPL.
AND I SAW myFUCKING IRRITATING cousin, Melvin.
Well, he didn't see me either, why should I bother.
HE'S A MORON.
Bloodyhell.
Anyway.. Just ignore that.
MS WAS SO BLOODY PACKED LA.
SIGH.
We went to City Link's Geláre for ICECREAM xPP
YUM!
And we started to cam-whore!
Hahahaa, finally, we got chased out and had nowhere to go : (
And so we decided to go to a non-crowded place.
Guess where?
THE ESPLANADE.
LMAO-
Hahahaha, YEP.
We went and sat there for a chat.
After awhile, we bought some marshmellows dipped in chocolate.
WOOH.
HAHAHA.
And walked all the way back to the train station and head to CP.
DANGS.
We had nowhere to GO :*
Anyhow, CP was less packed.
We went to the library and stay there for an hour or so before we head home.
WEEEE.
Thanks Lover for a wonderful laughing good day. : p
Good Night.
Thanks for hearing me rant y'all.
Lotsa LOVE...

He's all i ever wanted.. TO KILL.
11 days went by.. How time flies.
It's the 12th Day.
Time is still sufficient until you find out.
My heart's JADED...

paranoid.

everyone in the hse is fast asleep already except for me..
i don't feel like sleeping, cos i'm feeling troubled still.
sigh...
i'm gng for TP's band concert in the evening later with olivia and huanying.
hope there is tickets for us.
have to ready by 4PM.
and now it's approaching 4AM. -dangs-
approximately 12 hours left.
yawns.
worthless.
alright. i'd still better go to bed nw...
still, wide awake and still thinking through the days left..
till everything...

the deadline....
9 days are over, it's the 10th day.
can't be more foolish.. i'd rather you hurt meand let everything go...
and i'll move on....
don't let this be the abrupt ending.
i just need to know...

horray! interview!

hello! ah just staying home today, nowhere to go and nobody date me out, neither did i date anyone la.
hahaha..
so bored.. practically did NOTHING today!
the routine in the hse when i'm nt outside is talking to myself, singing, watching tv and coming here!
hahaha.
ah, so bored now.
i recieved a call from TP!
guess what.. they asked me to go for interview!
AHHH! hell man.
but it's a good chance la..
i'm PETRIFIED.
ARG, what are they gng to ask me.. really don't know lars.
hmm hmm : /
all the best to ME on MONDAY..
urg. so scary.
so bored now. BLAH.

class gathering.

hao lei ohh..
spent the day walking, talking, eating, laughing, shopping and taking photographs with my dear classmates!hahas.. yea. class gathering!
hmm, about 14 peeps went la.
considered not bad liao.
LOL.
our class is rather small, a size of 34 if i didn't remember wrongly.
yup, but i'd always rmb a few of them like five who won't usually join us for class activities la.
some didn't turn up cos of work or studies la.
so it's alright..i think next next we will be planning another gathering. : )
this time, no shopping trips la..
LOL. might be going to the ZOO.
hahas, was thinking we would like scare of the animals man.
anyway.. today was kinda fun la, but it got really boring at the end.
everyone went to takashimaya's seoul garden for a food feast..
hahas..
then we chatted and had fun during the session.
and i ate tonnes of MEAT AND SEAFOOD.
LOL.
i enjoyed the food and company somehow.
hahas..
after that we went to walk around orchard.
went heeren and started to cam-whore la!
hahas, all went to take pictures with each other..yea so funny man.
at arnd 5 plus su and cher went home :/sian...
then we walked arnd and somehow at the big group kinda dispersed la.
wanted to watch big momma house 2, but they ran out of tickets!!
AHH, so SAD..then went to far east...
zj's grp just disappeared..
after that they contact us and said they went to watch the movie instead.
SIAN LA..
sigh.
then we just shopped at far east plaza.
arnd 8+pm, we walked all the way to plaza sing.
omg, so tiring la..
sigh.
then we rest at the food court and met up with the rest of the group cos ali forgot to take her jacket from son la.
then we went home together.hahas, sounds bored la.
but after all, we did have a bit of FUN : )
i'm so looking forward to go to the zoo with all the crazy ppl!
keke. : p
yea..that's it. GOOD NIGHT.

i want to let it all go..
but it keeps coming back..
the time doesn't rewind back itself as always..
it just hurts so bad........
8 days..

thoughts.

tomorrow's the class gathering.
wonder what is going to happen then.
i bet there is going to be very few people turning up.
maybe, it's going to get screwed up.
TSK TSK.

the entire day at home drove me insane.
and finally, i changed my skin.. uh oh, no more cute DOMO-KUN.
i love that skin the most, but i got sick of it.
this skin sucks.
: (
whatever..
i'm bored.. i'm going to scribble on dear diary.
bye.

wonder why the long inflicted wound started to hurt again, just like the fresh cut before.
all this while, i'm the harlequin you've been taunting all along.
oh yes, i've heard your evil laughter a trillion times.
it won't go away.

TO APPEAL!

wth, the poly was so filled with desperate students like me.
LOL.
yea man, it was so freakingly PACKED PACKED PACKED.
the stupidest thing was, upon reaching, i've really got no idea what am i suppose to do.
i was ALONE. i went there ALONE. ALL ALONE.
so, i was exploring the place.. i've been there ONCE.
and that ONCE was LAST YEAR.
stupid stupid..
i followed ppl into the lifts, see what ppl are doing..
well, they all there just looking at the big signs there, re-choosing their courses.
WELL, i didn't.. i just want to know how the entire thing is processed.
ok so i tip-toed around cause i'm too SHORT.
so spastic.
OH! THERE THE APPLICATION FORMS WERE!
well, everyone was simply crowding there..
total chaos la..
then i just took a piece and when to sit somewhere nearby.. on the steps.
ok.. scrible.. and scrible.. AIYA, name to long.... limited squares... sigh.. nvm... scribble scribble.. OOPS!!! write wrong BIRTHDAY.. so stupid.. *cancel.. scribble.. scribble...* continues scribbling.. OH NO.. write hse no. as hp no. *frustrated... CANCEL...* continued scribbling..
there were like 3 types of 'JAE' lars.. well, i only knew one.. tht's JAE la.
then appeal to which courses.. they let us have 2 options..
ya so i placed lrm first, then business logistics.
finished..
was reading through... then it looks horrendously MESSY..
forget it.. i went to take a new copy and re-write it..
ok so i just write through carefully..
i read the terms ad conditions..
they said they need form A or result slip with CCA grades..
i sat there thinking very long.. and still thought i've forgotten to bring my CCA slip.
after 5mins, i realised my grades where IN FORM A.
so stupid..
ok larrs.. then i just went up wanting to submit the form..
then the admin peeps told me i needed to photocopy my result slip and form A.. bullshit..
so i walked aimlessly la.. but i managed to find the photocopy area..
yea..
the aunties in there very mean one lei...
TSK..
hahaha..
they anyhow throw yr papers lor..
irritating witches..
hah... finally.. i finished everything..
then wanted to queue up to submit, the peeps told me i can go liao..
then i was like? huh?~ why?
hahas.. then she say she will submit it for me..
then alright lar..
now was to find my way back home..
i saw carine those group of ppl la, almost followed them..
but then i called my bro, then he gave me directions..
yup..
so i got on bus 8.. he asked me to alight at tampinese library there. and guess what? i overshot.. and i went right into the interchange..
stupid..
fine, then i walked all the way to the bus stop with bus 27 for me to go home la..
hahaha, stupid la..
now so tired.. ok la.. that's all..
have to wait for freaking 3 weeks..
GOD BLESS!

depressed luh.

i'm feeling super lost and desporate now.. : (((
going to TP to appeal for lrm.
omg, i'm so scared. BLOODY SCARED.
tht i can't make it..
after appealing, i still have to wait for 3 long weeks.
><
how, i'm feeling so depressed now.
if i can't get in, i will be pretty pretty upset..
and there it goes, RETAIL MANAGEMENT.
wtf -__-
urg. i feel like killing myself nw.
STUPID.
why didn't i apply for JPSAE
STUPID LEI..
why am i so CARELESS.
i cannot believe it.
shitty feeling....
i'm so worried now..
i don't know will i make it.. my points are like so HIGH can..
SIGHHH.. HAIYA..
so fucking frustrated man.
btw, any idea how to get to TP?
oh no... :/

CRAZY.

oh no... : (
i've gain a lot of kilograms..
oh no : (((
sigh, but it's a gd thing that i'm nt looking even FATTER.
ew, so disgusted.
anyway......
just bored.. hmm hmm....
ytd i went on shopping spree with joey : D
spent less than $100 lar, dont worry.
hahas, bought a few tops and some body necessities..
uh yeah...
was so bloody pissed with my postings ytd.
well, serve me right la.. put retail as the 5th choice.
STUPID.
can't even get into any tourism management courses.
i wished they had like put me into another business course.
urg.... : (
oh MOE..... damn.
to appeal on monday! rar!

went hougang today..
find xueli and benjamin today..
haha, had a food feast... i can't feel my tummy now.
*burps* i'm bloated.
hahahas.. so we just sat and chatted..
soon, we gt bored and we headed to the playground..
and played on this spinning thingy...
oh my GOD, i flew AWAY!!!
OH MY!!!
well, fortunately, i didn't injure myself : D
i flew like 1 metres away..
hahas, and TAH-DAH, landed on my FEET.
keke.
after that we went xueli's house..
hahas, watched swing girls again.
OMG, slacked like nobody's business(i treated myself at home).
i just lie on the sofa and didn't care.. and continued watching with all the disturbance around me(thanks to XUELI).
hahha, i bet i won't do so if her parents were home lar.
GOOD GIRLS DO GOOD STUFF!
hahas..
after that we went out, waited for her cousin to come..
then ben n me took a cab home.
haha all this were way better than staying home..
oh i can't wait for WEDNESDAY'S GATHERING! : D
bye bye..

arg!!!

omg. damn fucked up! : (
i didnt get into the course i chose.
SICKENING. but hey, i got into RETAIL MANAGEMENT.
i dont know what to do now.. but then i'm still going to appeal.
i need advices lars.
if i couldn't make it to the course i long for, should i just stay put or go find other business courses?
shit.
help. : (

mistaken.

after reading my colleagues' blog, i feel like i'm the worthess one in the office.
kind of the forgotten one there, and the very pathetic victim of it all.
ok, i'd promise myself, i won't want to look back.
these bad memories won't exactly go away, it will be the worse experiences for my first job ever.
it won't just go away.
since i was labelled USELESS, the worker they want, i'm not going back to the company even if i were jobless.
it has cheated me so very much of my time and effort.
it has just gone way down the drain.
FUCKED UP PLACE.

oh well, all that ranting made me boil..
i'm feeling so angsty now.
ok, enough of that shit...
i met olivia today! xD
i just love to meet up with my dear old pal.
she's my super uber bestie!!!!
oh we went for breakfast at starbucks(again....?!?!).. yea. you heard me.
hehe.
chatting has always been our profession. : )
so we like sat there for 3 plus hours..
and we just keep going on. xD
after that.. was like lunch time already.. then i went to find food.
hungry :/
hmmm, then she came over to my house.
we laughed like mad over those old pictures man. xD
we were totally insane!!!
haaha.. then around 4 5 plus she went home.
GAH so bored.
i've been trying to figure out what to do for the past few hours after she left.
sooo, i let my dog out of its cage.. and we chase after one another.
LOL. was so tiring la.. i just love to entertain my BIEE BIEE.
hahaha.. soon, i find myself napping of the couch after reading the newspapers.
lol, then mom woke me up for dinner.
yea...
so bored.
im vacant tmr.
jeeesh. sleeping time!!!